The comeback

Maybe men can answer these questions for me: Why do you all break up with women that are really into you and care about you? Then months or years later after you been doing whatever you want to do decide you want to try again? Not only try again, but expect us to be all excited and eager to see you? After y'all realize the grass isn't always greener on the other side Insert 80/20 rule here. I am not saying all men are this way, but quite a few are. And it bugs the shit out of me! For example: Dude: this isn't working? I dont want to be in relationship. Blah, Blah ,bullshit ,bullshit. It's not you its me. Then 2 months later you all of sudden have a change of heart??? Go all the way to hell and get out of my face. It doesn't work that way! This post stems from a message I just got from a very closed chapter in my life! BLAH

****BUCKET LIST ****

After a legnthy conversation with a friend I decided to complete a bucket list! Happy reading! I am hoping I can complete this all :)


Adventures/Travel:
1. Relocate to another state
2. Go to Italy
3. Spend a week a canyon ranch.
4. Go to Africa
5. Go to Dubai
6. Go to Montreal
7. Go to Budapest
8. Go to Crete
9. Go to Prague
10. Take a 1 week vacation alone.
11. Earn 100,000 Travel miles.

Career:
1. Become a manager
2. Become an executive
3. Own my own Business


Community
1. Start a non profit for troubled youth.
2. Donate a large sum of money to a foundation.

Creativity:
1. Create a website on my own from scratch.
2. Create a blog that people read on a constant basis and enjoy.
3. Create a scrape book about my life.


Entertainment:
1. See a debut on Broadway.
2. Go to an award show.
3. Go to a live sitcom or Day time TV taping.
4. Be a contestant on a game show.
5. Ride in a limo with all of my friends.
6. Take an Indian cooking class.
7. Watch all of the God father movies in one sitting.

Family:
1. Have a family reunion with all of my extended family.
2. Have a healthy baby.
3. Watch my child graduate from college.
4. Create a family scrapbook.
5. Having my family tree created.

Finances:
1. Pay off my debt.
2. Save 100,000 for a rainy day.
3. live a off a $5.00 dollars a day for a year straight to see how much money I Can save.


Hobbies:
1. Build a hope chest for my daughter. ( if I have one)
2. Take up Photography

3. Learn:
4. Learn to play an instrument.
5. Learn to belly dance. Learn how to drive a stick shift car.
6. Learn to speak another language.
7. Get a PhD

Love:
1. Find my true love.
2. Get married.
3. Go on a blind date.
4. Celebrate a major marriage milestone -like 25 years of marriage.

Personal:
1. Spend a 1 week alone every year.
2. Get rid of clutter and only keep what truly matters.
3. Read the bible cover to cover.
4. Complete a marathon of some sort.

Relationship/ Love Challenged

Hola!

So I have self diagnosed myself recently I am relationship challenged. Like I am not relationship normal. This is a real issue LOL I googled it theres books and all types of shit! I am in some weird type mood lately cause I am not bothered by this at all. I am enjoying the single life! I miss sex, but hell since I am not good at that no strings attached bullshit! I guess I will put my celibacy into overdrive! * sigh *

Nonetheless this explains all the bullshit I have been thru I am relationship unstable! Even tho this is no laughing matter I cant help but laugh! And make a face like this:



* Shrugs whistles and walks away*

Update and shit !

So.... I am single again oddly enough 1 month later I don't feel nearly as bad as one would think! I mean I have my days, but today its one of those days I feel on top of the world!

From this last relationship I learned people don't deserve 2nd chances! I gave a Wes a second chance and he let me down!
So today I deleted Wes's # and all of text messages! I mean after 30 days he hasn't once tried to contact me so wtf is the point of keeping his shit right?! I just find it disturbing we spent 6 months with each other and not one call or text. I love how men minimize shit! Nonetheless I am glad I feel better and have no desire to even want to be friends or anything else with him! I wish him the best in his future! :)

In even better news in 68 day I will be in Dallas. Weird I went to dinner with the girls today and the hostess had this accent! So we all asked where she was from and go figure she was from Dallas Texas! I was so excited to hear her say Dallas! I asked why she left? She stated she wanted a change, but Dallas was a fabulous city and I was gonna love it! If that isn't a sign then I don't know what is!

I Can't by A.Lambert

I CAN'T
Can't eat. Can't sleep.
My minds running wild
.... And I can't catch it!
Thoughts are coming out before my brain can calculate
... Im hurt!
Nothing new though
Everything I see, I've been through before
.... Have I failed?
Failed to realize, life IS about mistakes
But how many times are you going to make them?
... Correct!
Correct my heart
And all the pain it has endured.
... Understand.
Understand that I'm human and I'm entitled to fall
As long as I get up
... I CAN'T say "I can't"

Friends- How many of us have them?

Hey Love bugs! Its been a minute. Time has just been getting away from me! I have been meaning to right this post for a while now! So anyways I want to touch on the subject of friendship. The good, Bad and down right UGLY.

Most recently I have been going through that stage in life where I am getting rid of everything! Whether it be clothes, shoes or sad to say friendships.

Growing up my mom always told me everyone is not your friend. I never believed her, but I tell you she has been right on the money lately! I mean over the years my mom has been a damn good judge of character. She has always expressed who she liked, Disliked and could NOT stand. And most times she was right with her character judgment! Even when she was right I never listened and had to learn the hard way! You ever heard the saying "a hard head makes a soft ass" Ummmm that is me! That saying was made after me. I dont listen until it is too late!

Now I have a horrible habit of holding on to things that aren't so good for me. Friendships especially! As of last year I have cut out a lot people I thought were friends. Friendship is NOT something that is supposed to be convenient or out of convenience. Your supposed to be there for your friends no matter what. I'd like to think I can count on my friends when things are good and bad!

Most recently a friend of mine chose her new boyfriend over our long term friendship. Now this is something that occurs when your young. As an adult I would expect a friend to be able to juggle having a relationship and keeping friendships that were there prior intact. Nonetheless I removed myself from the friendship. I don't have time to be second rate to anyone. If she calls cool, if she sends a text cool. But me making an effort to make our friendship work is a negative! When and if shit hits the fan my phone lines are open. But I will NOT be making any additional effort! The way she ended our last conversation was hurtful, shocking and down right rude.

It always amazes me the things that can come between a friendship, but the one that especially gets me is girls not being able to be separated from their man/men. I think it shows a lot about a persons character if they are so attached to someone they barely even know ! I mean don’t get me wrong I love to see my friends happy, but its extremely unhealthy to not have time apart in a relationship. Time to know what you like and what makes you happy! I was told by a close friend my expectations were too high. But I just don't get it. I guess its not really for me to get.

100 Things to do before I die

I borrowed this idea from one of the many blogs I follow. I have been trying to do this for what seems like forever. I made a few twist and changes but it is harder than one thinks to talk about 100 things to do before you die! The MTV show The Buried Life that asks the very question: "What do you want to do before you die?" So here is my list (in no particular order.) What's on yours?

100. Help at least one couple fall in love. <3
99. Dance in a burlesque show.
98. See a talk show live.
97. Learn all of the words to JJ Fads Supersonic
96. Sleep on the beach in a foreign country
95. Create a successful blog that people enjoy and are eager to read.
94. Buy myself a 2 carat diamond ring just for me.
93. Become a regular in a coffee shop.
92. Become a mommy
91. Learn how to use a hammer and all other tools to fix things.
90. Decorate my house without any help.
89. Travel to Europe solo.
88. Write a letter to all of my enemies. ( I am slowly working thru this as we speak)
87. Yell at someone if he/she deserves it.
86. Learn how to fix a tire.
85. Get a PhD.
84. Have dinner with a celebrity
83. Make a grand romantic gesture.
82. Watch every Godfather movie in one day .
81. See the Grand Canyon and Yellowstone Park.
80. Give my kids "The Talk."
79. Speak publicly in front of a large group.
78. Give blood.
77. Paint a portrait.
76. Raise a puppy.
75. Go to the olympics.
74. Win big in someones casino.
73. Get my gun license.
72. Make a signature cocktail.
71. Drink coffee in Starbucks in Seattle.
70. Find out how many licks to the center of a tootsie pop.
69. Name every type of bone in the human body.
68. Bake a really perfect pie.
67. Learn to tie a tie.
66. Go down the world's largest water slide.
65. Do a marathon.
64. Slap a man in the face.
63. Learn to drive stick.
62. Buy a ridiculously expensive pair of shoes 1 time a month for a year.
61. Drag race
60. Read a best seller every year.
59. Mud wrestle
58. Try to ski. (You know black people don't ski right)
57. Swim in a stranger's pool.
56. Learn to surf.
55. Invite a person in need over for dinner, no questions asked.
54. Proof read a novel.
53. Visit all 50 states.
52. Go camping again. Hated it the 1st time
51. Send an anonymous pizza to someone, somewhere.
50. Write a love letter.
49. Go to a movie premiere.
48. Go to fashion week.
47. Go back to my old neighborhood in ATL .
46. Slow dance in the middle of a club like no one is there .
45. Create a signature look.
44. Eat something and not know what it is.
43. Get drunk at a holiday office party and talk a lot of shit.
42. See all the Rocky movies
41. Swim in the ocean at night
40. Take professional nude pictures.
39. Learn to drive a boat.
38. Throw a fabulous engagement party.
37. Be the maid of honor in a wedding
36. Make my kids homemade cupcakes for every birthday until they are 18.
35. Write a letter to all of my friends telling them how much I value them.
34. Take a road trip cross country.
33. Do a week long silent retreat.
32. Crowd surf.
31. Eat escargot.
30. Be part of a protest (only if I really believe in it!)
29. Perform on stage again.
28. Teach someone something that helps
27. Write a children's book for my kids.
26. Breakdance. In public.
25. Throw a rockin' surprise party.
24. Put a message in a bottle.
23. Make a time capsule.
22. Sing a song to my grandchildren.
21. Watch a volcano erupt.
20. Touch a celebrity.
19. Learn how to give a massage.
18. See Cher perform live.
17. Create a signature dish my family can't get enough of.
16. Visit Graceland.
15.Go on a safari in Africa.
14. See how many marshmellows I can fit in my mouth without choking .
13. Learn how to take an epic photograph.
12. Create a Website.
11. Teach a class.
10. Fly a helicopter.
9. Make a scarpbook of my life.
8. Have my own industrial kitchen.
7. Create a telephone from two plastic cups and a string.
6. Work on a political campaign .
5. Find a life theme song.
4.Buy a red wagon.
3. Make lemonade stand with fresh lemonade.
2. Become a volunteer.
1. Find love that lasts forever. <3

Conscious eating

So my social worker I work with and I were talking about this conscious eating business( she's learned it in her class she's taking) and I am gonna try it! Ill give you a status update in a few weeks! I start tomorrow! :) Happy eating I guess- No,No I hope!


http://blog.pennlive.com/holistic-nutritionist/2008/08/ten_tips_for_conscious_eating.html

Sadly, we live in a society of fast food, meals on the run, and TV dinners. We award each other for being good at multi-tasking. We rarely take the time to prepare meals, eat together, and enjoy our food.
It's time we got back to listening to our bodies and forming a better relationship with food. Here are ten tips for conscious eating;
Eat When Hungry. There is a difference between physical hunger and emotional eating, stress eating, eating from boredom, or timed eating. You can practice recognizing physiological hunger by following these steps before you eat;
- Stop
- Close your eyes
- Take 3-5 deep breaths
- Place your hand on your abdomen and focus on your stomach pouch (internally)
- Notice
- Ask yourself - Where is my hunger? What is my hunger?
Slow Down. Remember digestion begins in the mouth and taste buds are on your tongue not in your stomach! In order to assist your body during digestion, try chewing your food thoroughly. This may mean chewing it 10 times or 30 - whatever it takes to make the food unrecognizable in your mouth. You can practice this with a mindful eating exercise. Take a raisin or dried piece of fruit and exaggerate the eating experience by holding, smelling, and chewing the food slowly.
Enjoy Food. We spend so much time avoiding certain foods or viewing food as the enemy that we forget it can be pleasurable. We may worry that once we eat a food that brings us pleasure we won't be able to stop. Actually, the result is controlled eating rather than out-of-control eating. Ask yourself - What do I feel like eating? Be aware of the taste, texture, temperature, and smell. And believe it or not you don't have to finish it if it doesn't taste good!
Stop Depriving Yourself. Skipping meals, low caloric intake, imbalanced meals, and nutrient deficiencies can all lead to compulsive or binge eating.
Create an Atmosphere. Clear off the table, put down the book, turn off the TV, get away from the computer, put down the phone, get out of the car, sit down, eat with a friend or family member, add candles or flowers to the table, and enjoy!
Stop When Full. Just like hunger, you can practice recognizing fullness. You don't have to be a member of the Clean Plate Club! Every ¼ of your plate follow these steps;
- Put down your fork
- Close your eyes
- Take 3-5 deep breaths
- Place your hand on abdomen and focus on stomach pouch (internally)
- Notice
- Ask yourself - Am I full? How full am I?
Relax Before and After Meals. Avoid starting a meal when you feel tense or angry and try sitting for a half hour after a meal before you reach for dessert.
Discover Your Metabolic Type. Are you a Protein Type, Carbohydrate Type, or Mixed Type? Track your food intake and physical responses to determine your type. Should your diet emphasize protein, complex carbohydrates, or include a balance of both?
Respect Your Individuality. Your body is like no other. You are not your spouse, sister, best friend, coworker, or the person in the magazine. Your life will change the moment you begin taking care of your mind, body, and soul in the way that is best for you.
Learn From Your Experiences. There will be times when you eat too fast, too much, too little, and the wrong choices...and its okay!
If you work towards even one of these changes you will be better off than you were the day before. Enjoy the journey!

Rambles, Rants and Shit

Well where shall I begin first I am watching love and other drugs with Anne Hathaway and Jake Gyllenhaal the cutest movie. I saw it it in theaters and had to purchase it on DVD :) I wont give the plot away but I want someone to love me like he loved her!

So lets go over my newest stress. So recently had my yearly exam( January) and got my all of my testing updated. I have a clean bill of health as usual or so I thought I get this email from my ob/gyn doctor stating that my A1C is elevated. Now with a slight elevation in my A1C this means I am Borderline Diabetic.... Last fast forward to last thursday National kidney day! I went to have a kidney screening and they found protein in my urine :'(. I automatically freaked out. I have a doctor appt next week. -_- Now when I was diagnosed with the borderline diabetes I decided to do whatever I needed to do to fix it. Cut out sugar, eat rabbit food and working out! I even lost 13 lbs then this extra blow automatic depression sets in! Ill keep you posted on what the doctor says!


On to happier things lets talk about this little busy bee's next couple of months:

*24 days till my homegirls B-day weekend in NYC
*45 days till my birthday B-day weekend in NYC
*71 days till Cabo with the social butterflies

Now all these events require new shit and I am sad to report I have one dress and its the purple one that is required for Cabo!
* ROLLS EYES *. Now when did it become all difficult and shit to find a dress. I hate people at the mall because they act all savage like! And don't even get me started on the online world cause this shit is all cheap looking expect a few. Ahhhhhhhh I just need some dresses. Wish I had so type of magic wand to get me dressed * Cries *

Weekend Wrap-up

Hey gals and guys! I hope you all had a Fab weekend! I did :) it was busy as all hell but it was all worth it!

So I gave Weston a small birthday dinner on Saturday! What a good time! My honey bunny had a fabulous time! My dad even joined in! I was so shocked he talked and engaged with Wes! WOOT! Now while having this great time with my family I started to think about Dwayne:/ and I started wondering how he was doing? Wondering what he was up to since I hadn't spoken to him months. Yea I know you are looking with the WTF face! I started pondering how is it possible this man has this type of hold on me. I mean yes I loved him at one point and time but that ship had sailed and he was old news to me!

Now I automatically felt really horrible that I was thinking about him while I was at my current boyfriends bday get together. So that night I googled how to block a number from texting, calling etc and deleted Dwayne's #'s of my phone. Now I am not one of those people who stores #'s in my memory thank goodness! So maybe now I am rid of him for good! I really want this to be the end so I can stop torturing myself with all the what ifs because its not fair to me nor is it appropriate for me to be thinking about my ex! Especially when I have this perfect man that would give me the world right in front of me!

So Sunday we stayed in bed, watched TV and slept. So relaxing I LOVED IT! Now Wes has told me he loved me and I have said it back! He has also told me that he is so glad he met me and wouldn't intentionally do anything to mess this up. You know what for the first time ever I believe it! I never believe men. Horrible I know! But if you have been through the BS I have been through you would understand.

So today I realized that he is what I have been waiting for! I am happy and blessed I met him and I wouldn't trade it for anything! Now if I could only shake thinking about Mr.Wrong and focus on Mr.Right life would be fabulous! I wonder if men have these issues??? What the hell am I talking about they have the same issues we do they just aren't as vocal as women are. Well that is my rant for the day! Happy Monday!

New Music

So I came across this chick named Adele the album is called 21 and oh my do I like the sound she is bringing! She reminds me of Amy Winehouse minus the booze and drugs! I listened to her album from beginning to end - NOT one song skipped! That is so rare for me! But this girls voice is powerful! If you have a free moment google her! I have a different music style but I swear this download is worth all of the space :)

My Weekend!

This weekend is one worth blogging about:

Saturday: I spent the day with my honey bunny ( hehehe that's Weston's pet nickname). We laid around and watched hours of Law and order: Special victims unit. I LOVE that show and I am turning Wes into a fan!
(success) hehehe.

Sunday: I went to Brunch with a few friends. I found this really good brunch spot on yelp! We had such a good time. Good food, good laughs and finally a chance to catch up! Unfortunately it was a task and a half to get to this place, sit down and eat. By the time we sat down to eat it was well after 2pm so instead of brunch it was a very late lunch. Luckily this place served breakfast all day! * Dougies* I would have been pissed if I didn't get my damn waffle! LOL After brunch I came home to take a nap and get ready for this comedy show. Wes and I went out in celebration of his birthday and we had a fabulous night! The comedy show was funny as hell! We come home and his friends come by for a few drinks! I have my usual glass of wine then birthday shots start flowing. I stay away from shots especially shots of Hennessy. Finally after 3 am we say goodbye to his friend and climb into bed.


Monday:Wes let me sleep in. He was so quiet, he closed the blinds and let me sleep in like a princess! I slept until 2:30 pm! Honey when I tell you I feel like a new person! After getting up showering and washing my hair my honey bunny makes me dinner :) Yummy burgers and fries ( Baked NOT fried). I am so happy about having this day off! I am well rested and actually not dreading heading to work tomorrow!

Kanye West - All Of The Lights ft. Rihanna, Kid Cudi

I am slightly obsessed with Kanye West! He is pure genius! I would love to spend one day with him! Just one!

That Love Doesn't Live Here Anymore!

Happy Saturday !

So I spoke to my BFF that lives in Texas this morning. Now we both have been super busy in our lives but it is always a happy occasion when we get to speak :). Anyways she texted me early this morning and the text read " I know its early but hit me at home when you wake up, k? Gotta ask you something too. Kinda weird! LOL" I instantly jump up, brush my teeth and start to dial her! We chit chat for what seemed like 5 mins but my call log says 2 hours and 20 mins LOL. We catch up on everything from work, her kids and her new engagement. Then she hits me with this : So I got this phone call yesterday at 4:01 pm from Dwayne. My stomach automatically sinks! I have that overwhelming feeling that I need to vomit! I am thinking WTF was this fool thinking? Why is he involving her in any of this! I let Shayan (That's my BFF's name) finish her story. She didn't answer the call but had kept his # when I gave it to her years ago incase anything were to ever happen to me. She says he didn't leave a message but was just shocked by the fact he had the nerve to call her of all people because she cant stand him for all the heartache he had caused me! By the end of the conversation we are both laughing and I am pondering what the hell Dwayne's motive was! Shayan and I say our goodbyes. We promise we will speak soon. Then I start to think........

Now I am going to give you the long story short it has been a good 2 months since I have answered Dwayne's calls. A few weeks ago he called left me a message yelling and screaming about me not answering his calls. I paid it no mind and laughed it off. I have thought about calling back but I know its NOT healthy for me! Now its been a little over a year since I've seen this man! I gave him 4 years of my life. I realized it wasn't going to work and I moved on. Now this dumbass for some reason has all these dreams about us getting back together! Ummm yeah thats not gonna happen! He wants to get back together because he knows I am happy! Boybye Miss me with the bullshit ..... Cause That Love Doesn't Live Here Anymore!

Words from Terrance J.

I read this on Necole Bitchie's blog site the other day and it inspired me! People do not become successful by luck it is because they are blessed I believe. As I get older I am starting to realize even if you are making money it doesnt matter at all if you aren't happy!

Today is a new day. A new opportunity to follow your dreams. Take advantage of this blessing. Take that leap. Whatever your dream is, you have to step towards it. The more steps you take the more the universe will conspire to assist you…

If you want to run a label, quit your job at the bank & intern at a label. If you want to be a doctor, apply to school today, etc. I wanted to act, so every week I go to acting school for 14 hours, study film & actors, read about projects, etc. Once I took steps, roles came.

A girl replied, how can I pay my bills if I quit my job to follow my dreams? – when following your dreams you will be temporarily inconvenienced. Tyler Perry was HOMELESS years before becoming a MILLIONAIRE. Only you can determine the amount of sacrifice your dreams are worth.

Before 106 I had a job making 30k but I wasnt happy. I quit. Moved to NY, worked small jobs to get by, & lived on @FredWhit FLOOR 8 MONTHS! I just meet so many people that want to reach their goals & then complain when it sounds hard! Go watch Pursuit of Happiness

Everybody has a different story. U may have kids, mortgage, bills, etc. But God is powerful. There is always a way to follow your dreams!



Read more: A Message From Terrence J | Necole Bitchie.com

Do you agree or disagree?

So I was cleaning across this legnthy article that I rememeber reading about 3 years ago. Makes a lot of sense doesnt it?I found this statement from a gentleman on Black Voices. I feel that a lot of what he has to say is very true (even if it hurts).

Bottom line--if I sleep with a woman I don't know or care about SEX
is NOT going to make me care. (I stopped doing that years ago) That
kind of sex is like scratching an itch. Once a man scratches, he's through.
He ain't sitting around thinking about that spot that itched or how good
it felt scratching it.He's moving on with his life until that spot itches
again and it don't matter which hand he scratches it with, just as long
as he gets rid of the itch.

Too many women PRETEND they can handle a sexual fling, but wind up
getting caught up and wanting us to romance and wine and dine them and
pretend we're having a "relationship" when it's NOTHING but a booty
call. Come on, ladies, y'all know I'm telling the truth.

Unfortunately, ladies, you are part of our problem. You sleep with us
BEFORE you know us or what we're about. Having sex with a man does not
automatically make that a "relationship". Many women will deny they
think like this but I'm speaking from personal experience. Also, ladies
know when their men are fooling around and still turn a blind eye by
getting mad at the other woman. Now, what kind of sense does that make?
Why should that woman make YOU (a total stranger) a priority in her
life? IF HE DID NOT MARRY YOU HE IS STILL SINGLE. The "other woman" is not breaking up a "happy home".

Many women marry men who were cheating BEFORE they walked down the aisle and then are SHOCKED that a fancy wedding dress or an expensive walk down the aisle didn't change who he was. Why should he change? YOU let him know it was acceptable by sticking around that long.

Ladies, start living with your eyes OPEN. Most shady men give themselves
away one way or another, usually before the first 30 days. Women have to
stop "rewarding" unfaithful men by pretending it ain't happening. All of
us Black Men (BM) do not cheat. I do not cheat on my lady so don't buy
the hype. I know other BM who do not but many men WILL cheat if there
are NO real penalties for it.

Stop jumping into bed with brothers YOU DON'T KNOW. That means fewer
opportunities for men to cheat. Women have to STOP being so afraid to
ask the important questions that would reveal his TRUE lifestyle. Worry
LESS about what kind of job he has and what kind of car he drives and
encourage him to talk about his past, particularly his past with women.
OPEN those ears and listen. Does he put down his ex-women and blame them for everything? And don't be so vain. You are NOT a better woman than
his last. If he dogged her out, you will probably be NEXT.

Observe him when you are with him. Do you have his home number? Work
number? Have you seen where he lives? Where he works? Is he secretive?
Did you ask if he's married or engaged? How does he treat other people?
Listen to what he says, NOT what you want to hear. Stop INTERPRETING the
meaning of what he says to fit your purposes. If he says, "I'm not
lookin' for nothing right now" -- DON'T tell yourself, "Aw, he just
scared of getting hurt. I can change his mind.." NO YOU CAN'T. He said
exactly what the hell he meant. BM don't have to lie when so many BW are
already DEAF.

If you can't answer BASIC questions about a man DON'T OPEN YOUR LEGS. I could kinda understand back in the days when sex wouldn't KILL people but now? there's no excuse and if a BW takes that huge risk of sleeping with a STRANGER then she better protect herself -- sexually AND
emotionally.

Show our a$$ to the door if we pressure you for sex too soon. Don't be
afraid t o be alone. After you give our a$$ some you will probably be
alone anyway but now you feel like a fool. In other words, take your
time and check us out. if we REALLY like you, we'll stick around. BUT if
you decided to sleep with a man you hardly know, PROTECT yourself and
keep your expectations to ZERO. We do not owe you a relationship or
another date just because you had sex with us. That's not how it works,
baby.

I have TOO many female friends who give me horror stories that could
have been avoided if they'd done their homework first OR moved SLOWER
before giving up the panties. I try as a BM to give them the best advice
I can but that won't mean a damn thing if BW continue to live in a dream
world. You are TOTALLY RESPONSIBLE for your own sexual behavior the same
as I am. Blaming the man won't change a damn thing. BW have t o look in
the mirror and take SOME of the blame for what's wrong with BM/BW
relationships. Let me end by saying....

SEX DOES NOT = A RELATIONSHIP

GIVING A MAN A READY-MADE FAMILY WILL NOT MAKE HIM COMMIT IF HE DOESN'T
WANT TO

A MAN WILL NOT RESPECT A WOMAN WHO DOES NOT RESPECT HERSELF OR HER BODY

IF YOU TRADE SEX FOR MATERIAL THINGS YOU ARE PROSTITUTING YOURSELF

IF HE DOESN'T TAKE CARE OF HIS OTHER CHILDREN WHY WOULD YOU HAVE A BABY
WITH HIM?

IF YOU REWARD A DOG WHY SHOULD MEN STOP BEING DOGS?

BRING MORE TO THE TABLE THAN YOUR BODY. NO YOUR [STUFF] IS NOT MADE OF
GOLD. IT IS ONLY AS GOOD AS I THINK IT IS. BELIEVE THAT.

BW are going to have to raise their standards if they expect BM to do
it. The question is, are my beautiful BW up to the challenge? Are you
willing to be strong and stop taking the easy way out? Ladies, ladies,
ladies, hit me back with some truth, not some bullsh#t. I don't want to
hear: "What you said don't refer to me 'cause I got my sh#t together and
I'm a proud black woman who intimidates men and I never made no
mistakes, it's those other women who do things like that."

No, no, no! I don't want to hear you putting yourself on a pedestal
because I KNOW you've made mistakes. I want you to hit me back with some
TRUTH. What are BW going to do about these shady, shaky relationships
that wind up in divorce court 60-70%% of the time, that's if we bother
getting married at all? What are BW going to do DIFFERENT to make this
sh#t better? Hit me back, ladies.

peace,
crammasters

Yesterday is the past. Tomorrow is the future.

Today is a GIFT, that is why it is called the PRESENT.

Making the simple complicated is easy.
Making the complicated simple requires
extreme CREATIVITY.

Work to achieve NOT to acquire

Valentines day!

So last year I posted about how much I disliked this holiday they call Valentines day and even though I am in a relationship this year unmmmm you guessed it I still can't stand the holiday!

Let me give you some reasons why I despise this holiday so much and no its not cause I am bitter! So since I was a child never liked the holiday it was a way to make you feel shitty because you didn't a stupid card in one of those cheap envelopes with the heart lollipop. It was always a popularity contest one card you were a loser and no one liked you. I swear this set some people I know up for failure. Oddly growing up I got a lot of cards from classmates. I put money on it if I was getting those cards now I wouldn't get half as many cause I am so damn evil sometimes ok most times * shrugs *

Now as i've gotten older I have had a boyfriend on valentines day and I get extremely annoyed at gifts like flowers, stupid teddy bears and that nasty ass chocolate I am supposed to pretend to like. Now I hate the flowers cause I feel like you should buy me flowers just because. why cant you buy me flowers any other time besides 2/14? I also hate flowers cause I kill them. I do not have a green thumb at all! Now the teddy bear what the hell am I 5? WTF am I going to do with a teddy bear? I will tell you what I have done with my teddy bears I have collected over the years I have trashed them. They have all gone to teddy bear heaven! There isn't much I can say about the chocolate besides the fact I spend about an hour biting into the chocolate only to realize I like to pieces in the whole damn box. Can you say waste?

Another reason I dislike this holiday is I always feel all stressed out to buy gifts or get the perfect gift ! Finally when you do find gifts you come up with stupid shit like boxers with flames on them or some other stupidness you really don't want to see your boyfriend or husband parade around in -__-.

Then you are forced to see how in love people are! I legit wanted to puke with all the displays of public affection i've seen! Like please save that shit for your home we get it he bought you some cheesy gift and now he will get some later we understand please go sit down somewhere. And men are so simple they clearly don't realize they are paying for the same pussy they get for free the other 364 days out of the year :/

Needless to say I think Valentines day is a crock! Its a way for businesses to make lots of money on stuff that you will most likely never use again and probably didn't want to begin with! I don't want shit for Valentines and I have made it very clear to Weston! I want to come home for work on 2/14 and do the same shit we normally do! I just have never liked this evil holiday LOL

Now to all you peeps out there who will be out and about celebrating I hope you enjoy and your holiday is all you dreamed of! Let me know if you feel any different on 2/15!!

Ugh that white stuff that won't stop falling from the sky!

So lets chit chat for a second about this white shit that keeps falling from the sky making my life a living hell! Yeah I am blogging about all this damn snow! I am officially over the snow! Like no one is allowed to say that word to me without getting the look of death from me! Like forreal it has snowed at least 6 times since the begininng of the year! Incase you forgot its only February! -__- And I am not talking about a dusting either everytime it has snowed its been some ol crazy amount 10 inches here 12 inches there! WTH Who pissed off Mother Nature cause she is giving the east coast a beating! Guess my Nana is right we are living in our last days * runs and hides*

Anywaydoe I wake up this morning- In a good mood I might add! Took a shower, got dressed and I am walking out the door on my way to work open the front door and this was my face:



My mood legit went from this:




To this:





Go figure it snowed again! I am pissed like beyond pissed like wanted to start shaking and crying LOL. Now when the weather gets to the point where this is how your feeling I mean for real how the hell am I supposed to function like a normal person.Cause the last two snow storms a bitch was trying to get to work cause I didn't think I could handle another day indoors!

Needless to say I make it to work annoyed because the people in Boston can not drive for shit when the roads are dry. So you can forget it when the roads are wet! So I decided on my lunch hour I am going to go to the gym and WTF now its raining and shit! I truck to the gym in the rain. Walk back from the gym in the damn rain! And then at 2 something it wants to be sunny and shit! UGH I am sending my prayers to mother nature tonight! Cause I am not sure I am going to make it! It needs to be spring like NOW!

Catching up April 2010 til Now

So my last post was March 10, 2010. So I have lots of catching up to do I am just going to go month by month that's probably easiest:

April ( My Bday month)
As usual I went to NYC for my bday and had a blast! Lots of funny things happened that weekend! Saying that sticks out in my head " yo he has on all leather everything " LOL




May- Vacation month
I went on a vacation with 10 very dear friends these girls are like my sisters! I heart them all! Yeah I said 10 even though there is 12 people in the photo one bitch got the boot Shrugs and I am not counting myself!




June-
Ummmmmm I dont recall anything too special about June :/ Therefore I must not have gone anywhere :'( that is tragic! (NO PIC). Oh but I do have to report it was the end of a friendship because this thirsty broad got my money stolen cause she wanted to be adventerous and bring men from NJ back to our hotel!( this below is my uninterested face):







July-
So I had a social butterfly cookout all my favs came up for a visit from NYC and ATL. A few memembers were missing but they were there in spirit.



Also in July was my Family reunion! It was a blessing to see all my family together!



August -
So August is alway hectic! But I love it :) Its my Niece's bday and this year she turned six aka 26! With her there is never a dull second! Love her to pieces.



September-
Well lets see September was a Fabulous month for me! 1. It was my momma's Bday :) Love this lady! Without her I am nothing!



Then Later in September it was Jazzy's dirty 30!!!! So many good things from that weekend! No I swear I have the memory card to prove it ( Hehehe)



Novemeber:
Hmmmmm November is my dad's bday and then there was thanksgiving! I didnt do too much partying again very tragic! And I don't think I have a picture for November. I did meet Mr.Atwood in Novemeber we will get to that next!

December
So Decemeber is one those crazy months for me. Its my sister and my nephews bday 1 on 12/3 the other 12/15.



Other notable things for December! I got myself a boyfriend :) His name is Weston and he has been the best thing to happen to me in a long time! I am doing something that is little different but I must say I LIKE IT!!!



January-
It was exciting because its a new year! Wes met my dad and all I am gonna say is it looked like a scene out of Guess who's coming to dinner ( Roles reversed of course ):



Now that you are all caught up! I promise to try and post at least once a week!