Happiness is mine just gotta grab for it

So I purchased Melanie Fiona's cd and damn I'm hooked like crack! I instantly fell in love with her a little over a year ago when I heard a song of hers on a mixtape! This chick says all the things my heart wants to and its so damn soulful! Finally real music is back! Alicia keys is on her A game too! I love when artist come back with aggression. Jay Z mad me fall in love with hip hop all over again he will always be my favorite rapper.

I purchased this book and I must say its the best 13 dollars I've spent on a self help book. I've been in the slump I can't seem to recover from. The book is called The bounce back book how to thrive in the face of adversity,setbacks, and losses. By Karen salmansohn. I am feeling very optimistic. :) sometimes a book is just what I need to put the bullshit of life into perspective.

I am on the hunt for a new job in 2010 I wanna put my skills into play and I need to be happy to do stellar things in my career. I wouldn't change the trials and tribulations throughout my life career wise for anything I have learned something new in every single job situation.

This is the type of FUCKED UP mood Im in UGH

PhD. In HIM

If I counted up all the hours I studied, read, focused on,
Fucked,
Sucked
Cried over,
Cried over,
Gotten up
And been resilient about not given up on, believed in, loved,
Hated
So believed in,
Ignored my friends' advice over,
Talked about,
Talked about,
Did I mention talked about?
I'd have a PhD in him
By now I could have had a PhD in, philosophy
Internal medicine,
Middle Eastern studies
Stem cell research but NO...
I have a PhD in HIM.
Funny how he brings me
No income,
no pention,
no future,
no future
Did I mention no future?
And so don't ask me what I did this year I didn't write any plays or any
Books
I didn't do some responsible shit like pursue a backup career
I was fully employed in the fury of
HIM
Graduated at the tippy top of my class,
Magna Cum fuckin Laude in a waste of fuckin' time, Hours upon hours
Spent figuring out his
Equations,
Riddles,
Word problems,
Cross word puzzle,
Cracking his codes
And philosophizing his constitution over
grand marnier,
wine ,
vodka,
vodka,
OH... did I mention vodka? ,
So quiz me I know him better than he knows himself, I'm that
matriculated doctorate ho,paid full tuition at Its All About Him
University Ladies? Have You Visited?
See, now I'm licensed to teach and preach Sparing my pride in the hope
some other women might read my dissertation.
See, I have a PhD in him and my transcript is rolling off my wicked
tongue.
Not sure of how my most difficult degree might serve me.
But think one day I'll thank him for reminding me how fierce a pupil of
life I really am

Very simple blog today! MEN suck! Thank u ur ok to go back to go back to ur regular program lol

I hate the dentist!

So I got my wisdom teeth pulled earlier and all I am gonna say sonofabitch (all one word) this shit hurts :( and I'm hungry. Oh well me and my narcotics are going to sleep!

I cant believe it is november! I am secretly excited 2009 is almost over though . It has been an interesting year. I Cant say that is has been bad I cant say its been great either! I am just blessed that I wake up every morning go to work and make it home in one piece. So I am beginning to think of my new years resolutions for 2010 and of course a few from 2009 have spilled over LOL. I am still on my weight loss kick I am gonna get that video vixen body ( hardwork and dedication is all I need) I am hoping 2010 brings me the happiness I want and I deserve.

I have this new guy in my life. For once I am going to sit back and not over analyze our relationship which is so hard for me! But I will try it! I am going to stop searching for my Mr.Right because quite frankly I am tired! Ive been dating since I was Fifteen and I have given my all in relationships just to ended up hurt! Now its time for someone to chase me ! I am happy with the choice I have made as far a this guy goes. I am not going to get all excited because he hasn’t done anything for me to get excited for. He is definitely putting in effort but not the kind of effort I want! So Blah to that!

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Today was a good day! I slept and got ready for the work week! Friday I get 5 teeth pulled yikes ! I will be happy when that's over! Well gotta go to bed gym at 4am then work! I am trying to get that video vixen body by my birthday ! 6 months and counting 40 pounds to go ! Alright muahz!