Come on 2010

So I am so over 2009 I just want it to be 2010! This year has been nothing but a headache. I am blessed to be alive but gotdamn this year has been draining.

Now I am questioning the friendship I have with people. People I have been friends with for years have been testing me lately. So to keep my attitude in check I am going to stay the fuck away from these sneaky bitches. Cause I can feel it I am gonna snap on someone! And I promise you it wont be pretty!

Why can't I just have 1 normal friendship with someone? There is always some type of craziness either jealously or people are liars. And lately I have been feeling strange about Me and my BFF's friendship. We are totally different we went from being extra close to Idk. How do two people just switch? I think I have grown up and she has not :( this is not how this is supposed to be. I assume I am just at a different place in my life. And there is no talking to her about this I have tried it once and it was not a good outcome. I need suggestions on what to do?? Ahhhhh Somethings gotta give!

I just dont get people - I know I am aimlessly rambling but I needed to get that off my chest! *sigh*