WHY !!!!!

Today was a definite whoa is me day! I have about a million and one thoughts going through my head right now!
1.I wanna know why I am single?
2.I want to know why the one man I truly love and care about doesn't want to get his act together?
3.I want know why some of the the worst people end up being the first to be married?
4.I want know why be a respectable chick gets you no where fast?
5.I want to know why every man I meet is an asshole?
6.I want to know why I am having this urge to have children? (Don't get me wrong I love kids but I want to be married and settled! But that damn Biological clock is ticking loud as hell)
7.I want to know if Mr. NJ is ever going to be the man I want him to be?
8.Should I follow my heart or what my mind is telling?

I mean really all of these things are running through my head right now! I just want to be happy and its seems I cant catch a break! I went to school, I work, I don't sleep around, I mind my business and I know how to take care of a household yet and still I AM ALONE! At first it was fun now this shit is getting old! I am not saying I need a husband, but hot damn a companion would be great! I don't want to sound desperate but Jesus I am praying for some happier times! *Sigh* I had to get that off my chest!