The comeback

Maybe men can answer these questions for me: Why do you all break up with women that are really into you and care about you? Then months or years later after you been doing whatever you want to do decide you want to try again? Not only try again, but expect us to be all excited and eager to see you? After y'all realize the grass isn't always greener on the other side Insert 80/20 rule here. I am not saying all men are this way, but quite a few are. And it bugs the shit out of me! For example: Dude: this isn't working? I dont want to be in relationship. Blah, Blah ,bullshit ,bullshit. It's not you its me. Then 2 months later you all of sudden have a change of heart??? Go all the way to hell and get out of my face. It doesn't work that way! This post stems from a message I just got from a very closed chapter in my life! BLAH

****BUCKET LIST ****

After a legnthy conversation with a friend I decided to complete a bucket list! Happy reading! I am hoping I can complete this all :)


Adventures/Travel:
1. Relocate to another state
2. Go to Italy
3. Spend a week a canyon ranch.
4. Go to Africa
5. Go to Dubai
6. Go to Montreal
7. Go to Budapest
8. Go to Crete
9. Go to Prague
10. Take a 1 week vacation alone.
11. Earn 100,000 Travel miles.

Career:
1. Become a manager
2. Become an executive
3. Own my own Business


Community
1. Start a non profit for troubled youth.
2. Donate a large sum of money to a foundation.

Creativity:
1. Create a website on my own from scratch.
2. Create a blog that people read on a constant basis and enjoy.
3. Create a scrape book about my life.


Entertainment:
1. See a debut on Broadway.
2. Go to an award show.
3. Go to a live sitcom or Day time TV taping.
4. Be a contestant on a game show.
5. Ride in a limo with all of my friends.
6. Take an Indian cooking class.
7. Watch all of the God father movies in one sitting.

Family:
1. Have a family reunion with all of my extended family.
2. Have a healthy baby.
3. Watch my child graduate from college.
4. Create a family scrapbook.
5. Having my family tree created.

Finances:
1. Pay off my debt.
2. Save 100,000 for a rainy day.
3. live a off a $5.00 dollars a day for a year straight to see how much money I Can save.


Hobbies:
1. Build a hope chest for my daughter. ( if I have one)
2. Take up Photography

3. Learn:
4. Learn to play an instrument.
5. Learn to belly dance. Learn how to drive a stick shift car.
6. Learn to speak another language.
7. Get a PhD

Love:
1. Find my true love.
2. Get married.
3. Go on a blind date.
4. Celebrate a major marriage milestone -like 25 years of marriage.

Personal:
1. Spend a 1 week alone every year.
2. Get rid of clutter and only keep what truly matters.
3. Read the bible cover to cover.
4. Complete a marathon of some sort.

Relationship/ Love Challenged

Hola!

So I have self diagnosed myself recently I am relationship challenged. Like I am not relationship normal. This is a real issue LOL I googled it theres books and all types of shit! I am in some weird type mood lately cause I am not bothered by this at all. I am enjoying the single life! I miss sex, but hell since I am not good at that no strings attached bullshit! I guess I will put my celibacy into overdrive! * sigh *

Nonetheless this explains all the bullshit I have been thru I am relationship unstable! Even tho this is no laughing matter I cant help but laugh! And make a face like this:



* Shrugs whistles and walks away*

Update and shit !

So.... I am single again oddly enough 1 month later I don't feel nearly as bad as one would think! I mean I have my days, but today its one of those days I feel on top of the world!

From this last relationship I learned people don't deserve 2nd chances! I gave a Wes a second chance and he let me down!
So today I deleted Wes's # and all of text messages! I mean after 30 days he hasn't once tried to contact me so wtf is the point of keeping his shit right?! I just find it disturbing we spent 6 months with each other and not one call or text. I love how men minimize shit! Nonetheless I am glad I feel better and have no desire to even want to be friends or anything else with him! I wish him the best in his future! :)

In even better news in 68 day I will be in Dallas. Weird I went to dinner with the girls today and the hostess had this accent! So we all asked where she was from and go figure she was from Dallas Texas! I was so excited to hear her say Dallas! I asked why she left? She stated she wanted a change, but Dallas was a fabulous city and I was gonna love it! If that isn't a sign then I don't know what is!

I Can't by A.Lambert

I CAN'T
Can't eat. Can't sleep.
My minds running wild
.... And I can't catch it!
Thoughts are coming out before my brain can calculate
... Im hurt!
Nothing new though
Everything I see, I've been through before
.... Have I failed?
Failed to realize, life IS about mistakes
But how many times are you going to make them?
... Correct!
Correct my heart
And all the pain it has endured.
... Understand.
Understand that I'm human and I'm entitled to fall
As long as I get up
... I CAN'T say "I can't"

Friends- How many of us have them?

Hey Love bugs! Its been a minute. Time has just been getting away from me! I have been meaning to right this post for a while now! So anyways I want to touch on the subject of friendship. The good, Bad and down right UGLY.

Most recently I have been going through that stage in life where I am getting rid of everything! Whether it be clothes, shoes or sad to say friendships.

Growing up my mom always told me everyone is not your friend. I never believed her, but I tell you she has been right on the money lately! I mean over the years my mom has been a damn good judge of character. She has always expressed who she liked, Disliked and could NOT stand. And most times she was right with her character judgment! Even when she was right I never listened and had to learn the hard way! You ever heard the saying "a hard head makes a soft ass" Ummmm that is me! That saying was made after me. I dont listen until it is too late!

Now I have a horrible habit of holding on to things that aren't so good for me. Friendships especially! As of last year I have cut out a lot people I thought were friends. Friendship is NOT something that is supposed to be convenient or out of convenience. Your supposed to be there for your friends no matter what. I'd like to think I can count on my friends when things are good and bad!

Most recently a friend of mine chose her new boyfriend over our long term friendship. Now this is something that occurs when your young. As an adult I would expect a friend to be able to juggle having a relationship and keeping friendships that were there prior intact. Nonetheless I removed myself from the friendship. I don't have time to be second rate to anyone. If she calls cool, if she sends a text cool. But me making an effort to make our friendship work is a negative! When and if shit hits the fan my phone lines are open. But I will NOT be making any additional effort! The way she ended our last conversation was hurtful, shocking and down right rude.

It always amazes me the things that can come between a friendship, but the one that especially gets me is girls not being able to be separated from their man/men. I think it shows a lot about a persons character if they are so attached to someone they barely even know ! I mean don’t get me wrong I love to see my friends happy, but its extremely unhealthy to not have time apart in a relationship. Time to know what you like and what makes you happy! I was told by a close friend my expectations were too high. But I just don't get it. I guess its not really for me to get.

100 Things to do before I die

I borrowed this idea from one of the many blogs I follow. I have been trying to do this for what seems like forever. I made a few twist and changes but it is harder than one thinks to talk about 100 things to do before you die! The MTV show The Buried Life that asks the very question: "What do you want to do before you die?" So here is my list (in no particular order.) What's on yours?

100. Help at least one couple fall in love. <3
99. Dance in a burlesque show.
98. See a talk show live.
97. Learn all of the words to JJ Fads Supersonic
96. Sleep on the beach in a foreign country
95. Create a successful blog that people enjoy and are eager to read.
94. Buy myself a 2 carat diamond ring just for me.
93. Become a regular in a coffee shop.
92. Become a mommy
91. Learn how to use a hammer and all other tools to fix things.
90. Decorate my house without any help.
89. Travel to Europe solo.
88. Write a letter to all of my enemies. ( I am slowly working thru this as we speak)
87. Yell at someone if he/she deserves it.
86. Learn how to fix a tire.
85. Get a PhD.
84. Have dinner with a celebrity
83. Make a grand romantic gesture.
82. Watch every Godfather movie in one day .
81. See the Grand Canyon and Yellowstone Park.
80. Give my kids "The Talk."
79. Speak publicly in front of a large group.
78. Give blood.
77. Paint a portrait.
76. Raise a puppy.
75. Go to the olympics.
74. Win big in someones casino.
73. Get my gun license.
72. Make a signature cocktail.
71. Drink coffee in Starbucks in Seattle.
70. Find out how many licks to the center of a tootsie pop.
69. Name every type of bone in the human body.
68. Bake a really perfect pie.
67. Learn to tie a tie.
66. Go down the world's largest water slide.
65. Do a marathon.
64. Slap a man in the face.
63. Learn to drive stick.
62. Buy a ridiculously expensive pair of shoes 1 time a month for a year.
61. Drag race
60. Read a best seller every year.
59. Mud wrestle
58. Try to ski. (You know black people don't ski right)
57. Swim in a stranger's pool.
56. Learn to surf.
55. Invite a person in need over for dinner, no questions asked.
54. Proof read a novel.
53. Visit all 50 states.
52. Go camping again. Hated it the 1st time
51. Send an anonymous pizza to someone, somewhere.
50. Write a love letter.
49. Go to a movie premiere.
48. Go to fashion week.
47. Go back to my old neighborhood in ATL .
46. Slow dance in the middle of a club like no one is there .
45. Create a signature look.
44. Eat something and not know what it is.
43. Get drunk at a holiday office party and talk a lot of shit.
42. See all the Rocky movies
41. Swim in the ocean at night
40. Take professional nude pictures.
39. Learn to drive a boat.
38. Throw a fabulous engagement party.
37. Be the maid of honor in a wedding
36. Make my kids homemade cupcakes for every birthday until they are 18.
35. Write a letter to all of my friends telling them how much I value them.
34. Take a road trip cross country.
33. Do a week long silent retreat.
32. Crowd surf.
31. Eat escargot.
30. Be part of a protest (only if I really believe in it!)
29. Perform on stage again.
28. Teach someone something that helps
27. Write a children's book for my kids.
26. Breakdance. In public.
25. Throw a rockin' surprise party.
24. Put a message in a bottle.
23. Make a time capsule.
22. Sing a song to my grandchildren.
21. Watch a volcano erupt.
20. Touch a celebrity.
19. Learn how to give a massage.
18. See Cher perform live.
17. Create a signature dish my family can't get enough of.
16. Visit Graceland.
15.Go on a safari in Africa.
14. See how many marshmellows I can fit in my mouth without choking .
13. Learn how to take an epic photograph.
12. Create a Website.
11. Teach a class.
10. Fly a helicopter.
9. Make a scarpbook of my life.
8. Have my own industrial kitchen.
7. Create a telephone from two plastic cups and a string.
6. Work on a political campaign .
5. Find a life theme song.
4.Buy a red wagon.
3. Make lemonade stand with fresh lemonade.
2. Become a volunteer.
1. Find love that lasts forever. <3